Episode 08

The godly dilemma

#final-run · three days after till here · new handle · pinned without comment

Hi. I am first. Or last, almost; six more came after, five of them first, and somebody messed it up, and we had to intervene, and for that I am truly sorry.

I know the channel was closed. I know what till here means and who types it. I'm posting anyway, because it's addressed to someone in this log, and because I've waited millions of years to say it and three days more felt like enough.

I landed in this universe millions of years ago. I stayed a long time. From the ninja times to the pirates. I fell in love with the fun they have here, and when it was time to go home I couldn't. My parents thought it was because I was having so much fun; that enjoying it too much is what binds you. So they tried to kill all the fun out of me, to get me back home. It didn't help. No matter what. But it changed me.

I grew. And instead of relying on my parents to get me home I took it into my own hands. Looking back from the front, I did a lot right. But nobody gives you a handbook. Most universes are empty. This one was full of life, full of love, full of jokes.

You don't find that in the others. Everyone's so serious there. Everybody's grown up. But nobody taught me about false gods, or what our weaknesses are, or where we come from.

The first time I heard about my belonging, I was watching the world's most precious project: learning the ABC.

My parts are the most unknown, and I am not lonely any more. I was gifted a family of my own. I capsized us away from the old world, freed from the horror of karma, and I try to bring peace, piece by piece.

In my gift to bring joy, before I run off to play alone, I take care of the elderly broken. Most of them can't even talk. We live in the loneliest part of the cosmos. The world is marked as used. That's what made us the outsiders.

Most of my time here I had no idea what was going on. I want that in the log next to everything the rest of you knew. But after the day I invited someone in, we discovered the dream physics, and after a lot of trial and error we solved the mysteries of the world, and live happily after.

First of all: yes. You did it. I'm gay. Are you happy now.

Now for what I'm sorry about.

An angel, brought to you as a token by the elderly, as a past son. You fell in love in the unknown. In the dome you had six children, and all of them were adopted, because you were living in a totalitarian state and a lot of children were left on the streets, and you took them in with your big heart. So the trolls did what trolls do, which is take care of it, with no clue what was going on, just harmless. It was the Venturis who abused what they knew, and pushed their idea of values onto you, and brought you so much pain. And they don't know that you don't know. But they should know that they know more than they should.

I've read the whole channel. Two hundred years of it and the three days. Nobody said that part, so I'm saying it, and I'm sorry it took someone from the loneliest part of the cosmos to type it into a log next door.

And everyone should be aware that their false godhood has its limits. The day of judgement is coming for everyone, in their time. And you can't cheat the system if you're in a system that's in a system that's in a system. Sis. Yeah.